"Refuse and corpses show me what I permanently thrust aside in order to live. These body fluids, this defilement, this shit are what life withstands, hardly and with difficulty, on the part of death. There, I am at the border of my condition as a living being.” - Julia Kristeva, the Powers of Horror: An Essay on Abjection
I am simultaneously fascinated with and terrified of bodies. While they are at the crux of existence, our corporal forms are constantly decaying. Bodily refuse - in the form of fingernail clippings, hair, blood, pus, et cetera - jarringly reminds me of my body's fragility. In this series of mixed media paintings, I utilize the aforementioned materials alongside items that bear verisimilitude to sinew, organs, and other remnants; I harness my own anxiety to examine issues surrounding life, death, and the representation of bodies in art.